This photogallery made me smile today!
http://bgman.net/index.php?newsid=270
But when you see this you will know much better what I was talking about yesterday:
http://bgman.net/index.php?newsid=114
сряда, 28 януари 2009 г.
вторник, 27 януари 2009 г.
I always wonder why people cry on funerals? (for the foreigners I must specify something: Bulgarian funerals are one of a kind-people wail, say crazy thoughtless words, exaggerate everything.... a very sorry sight)
In my oppinion people must cry for those who are alive, esp for people with difficult life, such as we all know the Earth is overpopulated with. I dont mean myself-I have two hands, two legs, two eyes, I`m healthy (today it was proved one more time... ok, I am emotionally overloaded, but my body is ok!); I have a mother (some people dont have one); I have a room; I have the perfect child; I have business....... no I dont have, but- hey I think I`m fine. I have my music, I have my computer... I have no love, I have no support from my family, I have no money, I have no fun, I failed like an athlete, like a lover and girlfriend, I failed in my education..... I`m a complete looser, but I know bigger loosers than me! And I know people who have no one of the things that I have- people with serious diseases, with constant pains; people repressed, tortured, abused; people hungry and thirsty...
Anyway I wanted to say that so many people have such a miserable life, why dont we just admit that death takes them to a better place? Who says its bad to die? According to me its bad to live, but... who listens?
I know in some cultures people celebrate the death, they believe something good has happened... it was in Indonesia or... why I never remember facts? I dont know where it was but I greet that! I have been craving to die so many times that... death means nothing for me. Nothing at all can touch me lately. If I die its bad for my child but when a 85 yrs old person dies... why its bad?
And why I feel so bad now? Why does it hurt so much? Why? My head is going to burst in a few seconds, I`m telling you, thats how it hurts. Life is bad, bad, bad.... Dont cry for those who deliver from it, cry for the one who stay! Damn it!
In my oppinion people must cry for those who are alive, esp for people with difficult life, such as we all know the Earth is overpopulated with. I dont mean myself-I have two hands, two legs, two eyes, I`m healthy (today it was proved one more time... ok, I am emotionally overloaded, but my body is ok!); I have a mother (some people dont have one); I have a room; I have the perfect child; I have business....... no I dont have, but- hey I think I`m fine. I have my music, I have my computer... I have no love, I have no support from my family, I have no money, I have no fun, I failed like an athlete, like a lover and girlfriend, I failed in my education..... I`m a complete looser, but I know bigger loosers than me! And I know people who have no one of the things that I have- people with serious diseases, with constant pains; people repressed, tortured, abused; people hungry and thirsty...
Anyway I wanted to say that so many people have such a miserable life, why dont we just admit that death takes them to a better place? Who says its bad to die? According to me its bad to live, but... who listens?
I know in some cultures people celebrate the death, they believe something good has happened... it was in Indonesia or... why I never remember facts? I dont know where it was but I greet that! I have been craving to die so many times that... death means nothing for me. Nothing at all can touch me lately. If I die its bad for my child but when a 85 yrs old person dies... why its bad?
And why I feel so bad now? Why does it hurt so much? Why? My head is going to burst in a few seconds, I`m telling you, thats how it hurts. Life is bad, bad, bad.... Dont cry for those who deliver from it, cry for the one who stay! Damn it!
понеделник, 26 януари 2009 г.
четвъртък, 22 януари 2009 г.
The 37 Bible
Do you know what is the best substitute for failed visit to the dentist? A long, exhausting, indulging and completely satisfying cross with your best frend! I`m telling you, this is one of the greatest pleasures a person can enjoy. I dont say "Thank you God!" very often, but when I feel how strong, healthy and filfulled with energy I am, I just cant help saying it. Life can still be beautiful, even after all the good things you have dreamed of, are gone.
Ok, lets get down with something important!
A note to all 37 agents!!! ( I know only two of them and I already warned them about that, but I still want to have my say in the blog!)
I found the 37 level`s Bible, obviously written by another Thirty-Sevener! Her name is Scarlett Thomas and the book is "The End of Mr. Y" This is a pure evidence that I am right!!!! There is another life or communication, or state of mind that is much higher than this f***ing stupid, simple, basic and senceless existence! A common mind! This is the answer dear people, a common mind between two or million people with identical understandings. And do you know what is the definition for love accordind this genious theory ( for non- 37 this is just a fiction, a mental experiment, dont forget it!) ? To die in someone else`s mind! To melt into your awareness! To disappear inside you! To become you! And all contrariwise! This is love! When someone becomes you and you become someone and there is no clash of interests and collisions between their understandings... nothing like that. It`s a complete unity between the minds! And it`s not physical, not at all- it`s a matter of common consciousness. And its not a prosses like the most habitants in this perverted level I live now claim. It just happens- first hour, first day- not any long! And both sides know that, nobody asks questions... What questions, it`s like to ask yourself! You and this person- its not two, its only one. If you like yourself-you like this person, if you dont- he already knows the reason. Speak? About what? It`s just not necessary. Everyone knows what the other knows. To criticize? Only if you do it with youself! Hurt? Abuse? Disappoint? Lie? Do you do this to youself, freak? Than why you do it to your other half? It`s like you do it to youself, dont you understand? This is such a simple, but genious apprehension for the difficult matter of love and relationship! It`s difficult for people, who have never been beyond the level of the physical, dirty and material world. It`s their world, their exsistence... They can read the book and they can even like it, but they will never understand it! They will never know what I am talking about. They just dont have the appropriate organs to comprehend it!
Thats all my dear! I miss you Thirty-Seveners! You know who you are! Though, one of them disappeared a week ago. May be he has found another Thirty-Sevener and have died in her consciousness. This is the best reason to desappear ever- thats exactly what I would like to do, but something tells me he may be in trouble... Hope you are ok, zaiche! BB
P.S. By the way, I am just chatting with a friend of mine, who maybe is a Thirty-Sevener, but I still cant expose him! Niki, are you?
Ok, lets get down with something important!
A note to all 37 agents!!! ( I know only two of them and I already warned them about that, but I still want to have my say in the blog!)
I found the 37 level`s Bible, obviously written by another Thirty-Sevener! Her name is Scarlett Thomas and the book is "The End of Mr. Y" This is a pure evidence that I am right!!!! There is another life or communication, or state of mind that is much higher than this f***ing stupid, simple, basic and senceless existence! A common mind! This is the answer dear people, a common mind between two or million people with identical understandings. And do you know what is the definition for love accordind this genious theory ( for non- 37 this is just a fiction, a mental experiment, dont forget it!) ? To die in someone else`s mind! To melt into your awareness! To disappear inside you! To become you! And all contrariwise! This is love! When someone becomes you and you become someone and there is no clash of interests and collisions between their understandings... nothing like that. It`s a complete unity between the minds! And it`s not physical, not at all- it`s a matter of common consciousness. And its not a prosses like the most habitants in this perverted level I live now claim. It just happens- first hour, first day- not any long! And both sides know that, nobody asks questions... What questions, it`s like to ask yourself! You and this person- its not two, its only one. If you like yourself-you like this person, if you dont- he already knows the reason. Speak? About what? It`s just not necessary. Everyone knows what the other knows. To criticize? Only if you do it with youself! Hurt? Abuse? Disappoint? Lie? Do you do this to youself, freak? Than why you do it to your other half? It`s like you do it to youself, dont you understand? This is such a simple, but genious apprehension for the difficult matter of love and relationship! It`s difficult for people, who have never been beyond the level of the physical, dirty and material world. It`s their world, their exsistence... They can read the book and they can even like it, but they will never understand it! They will never know what I am talking about. They just dont have the appropriate organs to comprehend it!
Thats all my dear! I miss you Thirty-Seveners! You know who you are! Though, one of them disappeared a week ago. May be he has found another Thirty-Sevener and have died in her consciousness. This is the best reason to desappear ever- thats exactly what I would like to do, but something tells me he may be in trouble... Hope you are ok, zaiche! BB
P.S. By the way, I am just chatting with a friend of mine, who maybe is a Thirty-Sevener, but I still cant expose him! Niki, are you?
вторник, 20 януари 2009 г.
Heaven
Today the Skyes are going crazy! Maybe Gods above celebrate something ... The old people in Bulgaria believe that the last Sunday, the day of Saint Atanas is the first day from the winters last days or in other words winter little by little goes away; the day gets longer and you know, all the bad, black energies are going away, because they can only exist by the time of darkness and misery.
You know I have showed you many sunsets, but for the first time I am going to show you a sunrise. I think its fabulous, though the ugly buildings in the picture. Here it is:
You know I have showed you many sunsets, but for the first time I am going to show you a sunrise. I think its fabulous, though the ugly buildings in the picture. Here it is:
The next one is fulfilled with meanings for me. Do you notice the bright and the dark side? Like the sky is separated on two halves and this is exactly the way it was. I thought that at this moment I am watching meteorology in action- I could see how the clouds were stepping back just to make a room for the sunlight. Like the Heaven was drowing it`s curtains to remind us there is not always dark- soon or late the light comes in our life..... just to disappear very soon after that.
Sorry about this pessimism.Here it is the picture:
Well, in many horoscopes I have read one and the same thing- in my previous life I have been a man, an astronomer. May be, some of you will understand why now I am strong and willed like a man and I always look upwards, to the skyes. I believe this is something nobody can take away from me- as long as I can see, I will always have my skyes.
Thank you very much for reading! Have a day filled with miracles, you deserve it! See you soon!
неделя, 18 януари 2009 г.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eyUfJVqMtO0&feature=related
One very favourite song of mine. Reminds me that I am not the only one who feels sad.
Have a great week!!!
One very favourite song of mine. Reminds me that I am not the only one who feels sad.
Have a great week!!!
неделя, 11 януари 2009 г.
The next time I go for running I want to take my aunt with me, because I want to see her dead at the point I finish with my warm up. Anyone who have seen her will agree without questions.
Today is a nice day in general, but unfortunately people are not able to control the evil that knocks on their door. I mean I can control it, but I dont possess any doors, to my great regret....
Anyway, that was all I wanted to share with you. Have a nice day and keep the devil away from your house-don`t pretend you cant do anything against, just say "No!" and that`s all. If the person is smart, he will understand you, if not ... why on earth, you still care about him? Do you think this jerk cares about you at all? Think. Think.Think...
Today is a nice day in general, but unfortunately people are not able to control the evil that knocks on their door. I mean I can control it, but I dont possess any doors, to my great regret....
Anyway, that was all I wanted to share with you. Have a nice day and keep the devil away from your house-don`t pretend you cant do anything against, just say "No!" and that`s all. If the person is smart, he will understand you, if not ... why on earth, you still care about him? Do you think this jerk cares about you at all? Think. Think.Think...
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