ladybirdyd: Soul mates

My dear friends, let me tell you a story. A story of love, souls and .... features!

But as a beginning, let me define some important details: in my whole complex and complicated personality, I can define three different parts- body, mind and soul. Unfortunately, I can say that these three are always in conflict- my soul doesnt like my body, but likes a little the mind; my body never listens to my mind, when one gives instructions to it- like when I say "Run!" it doesnt want to run, when I say "Sleep!" it doesnt want to sleep, when I say "Remember this word or number!" it doest want to remember again. So my mind considers that, this body of mine is too naughty, too fat and too ugly to be part of the same personality with it. And it`s true- I have never liked myself- the way I look like, the way I behave, my intellect, my skin, my hair, my brain, my feminine forms etc.

On other side, my soul deep inside, considers that this body is kind of ... acceptable, maybe or at least doesn`t judje it`s imperfection as cruel as the mind does, just because it`s mine. And I can say that my soul loves it and I feels pitty about all the cruel things that the mind causes to my body, like neverending diets, exhausting trainings and cosmetics prosedures just to make it look acceptable for its high demand.... Do I have to say that my body will never meet my mind`s requirements and all the three of us will always suffer bacause of it?

And one more thing- my soul is not in a good terms with the mind and the body, blaming them that its their fault that we are still alone....

Yeah, that`s the point- the three of us are alone. And we all suffer- the mind is angry to the whole world, all the time, having nobody to talk with, the body aches for some tender love and care and my soul... my soul suffers the most.

You know I work in a laundry service. And once one of my client`s shirts was jammed between the washing machine`s door and the drum and from the high spinning the shirt was grinded into a horrible shred... Trully thats the picture appearing in my mind when I think about my soul. My dear, lonely, torn soul...

I`ve been thinking about the soul`s issue a lot. Like what it is, where it comes from and where it goes? And it`s pretty obvious to me, that my body and soul have nothing in common between each other and that apparently my soul has inhabited the wrong body on March, 31st,1981. Yes, I do believe it- that my soul inhabits the wrong body and doesnt fits to its settings, like the mind can`t read this format (of the soul) and it`s sending wrond directions to the programs and the drivers and ... it`s one big mess in the system called Yana Dimitrova. Anyway, it`s not important or at least this is not the today`s subject. I had to speak about the souls and that they inhabit our bodies. So after I got to the conclusion that The Soul and The Body are different ( His Magesty The Mind is typing and translating thoughts and ideas from Bg to Eng and backward and stays aside from our story) they must meet and join each other at the time of the birth. And I guess it`s an unimaginable chaos at this place, or bit of the time, or dimention, or as I call it "page" where this sacred ritual happens. And I guess that it`s not very difficult mistakes to happen and the wrong soul to go to the wrong body, like it have happened with me. But I was thinking as well, that probaly souls like our bodies are very different, but at some point they may be alike. And I was thinking through the long lonely nights, when I couldnt sleep and I had to dream or feel fear or joy, or some other feeling or cry, whatever, but I thought that probably the similar souls choose to inhabit similar bodies....

And it makes sence- if they are alike, they will be appealed by the same things and they will prefer similar bodies to settle down and make them their homes for living.

Do you know what does soul mate mean? I hope you know, because I know it too, but I`m not able to explain it. May be if one day I do, I will have Nobel Award for literature. In short it must be similar souls, maybe comming from the same source or family, or whatever produses the souls; maybe the same God must be correct to say, I dont know and it doesnt matter, but on this very Earth where we have about 6 milliard bodies inhabited by 6 mlrd souls it must be a real bliss to meet a similar soul to yours. And I got to the conclusion that if the souls are alike than the bodies are alike. I found out (observing people like an idiot who has nothing else to do... yes I do observe you, I scan every single detail about you, I analize you and finally, I come to very interesting conclusions about you!!!) and I realized that some of the most united and solid couples I know, really look alike- like brothers and sisters have similar pfysical features. And these people are probably inhabited by alike souls... alike souls in alike bodies!!!! Soul mates! These are the soul mates, my dear, do you make it out? Just take a look around in the sea of devorses and partings- you must still notice them, those who we say "made for each other", who fit perfectly together like a glove... "Lovers, devoted to each other forever..." Martin says that.

Here are my friends-couples who became victims of my observation and examination. I trully enjoy them and thank them for being my one and only evidences that I am not crazy. I just see things the other people never notice. And I believe in true love and I believe it`s the only heal for my messed-up body-soul-and-mind! These people are giving me hope that I will find someone. Someone like me.

Take a look at them and compare their features- colours, shapes, forms, smiles, eyes.... see how people made for each other look like. Like brothers and sisters, like people coming from one source, made from one material...

Please, after all, dont forget that they are still a man and a woman and they are supposed to be different, and please consider that pictures doesn`t always show the people`s fascination. And these people have a great one! Thank you guys! Thanks for trusting me and allowing me publish your pictures in my blog! You made me feel like I mean something and I do some important and responsible work! Thank you!

Rumen and Maria Mitevi