picasso has another release:)

Please make a note of some details in this masterpiece: the controls are very authentic, there is a mark band attached on the tree, we have a little ladybird on the flower and the map holded by one of the girls is down to every feature! And the best for the last - it`s for sale!

The auction will be held tomorrow so everyone who is interested has to have plenty of cash and a lot of patience to manage with me!

We are waiting for your offers! The highest bidder wins the item!

Thanks in advance!

Picasso`s mom!

seasons

a memory from the long, boring, lonely winter and now trying to learn some more english

Koko zooms like an animal! And disappears the same way!

This video represents Nikolay Dimitrov - Koko who is the best Brown Team runner. The video was shot at the Bulgarian National Championship at Jundola,2008 when Koko passes the visible control at the relay race. He became national champion together with Andrey Abadjiev and Luchezar Iliev! Congratulations!

Good running we had for our women relay as well ,consisting of Mariana Agova, Stefaniya Dimitrova and Iva Agova!

I became 9th with my relay, the other 2 men relays are 4th and 6th!

yana`s postulates of love

If you are in love with the perfect man but he is not in love with you, it doesn`t make him less perfect!!!

If someone tells you that this man is not good for you and you will split up by the end of october, don`t trust this person! You will split up when you decide to!

Don`t think that you know what will happen with you both! Things always turn out in a different way!!!

Don`t push the love!!! It`s growing up slowly!!! Sometimes very slowly...

Love is painful! If it doesn`t hurt- it`s not love! It`s just sex for fun! If it`s just sex for fun- you don`t need love at all! If you don`t need sex to love- this is love! What`s the conclusion- if you don`t do sex and it hurts- you are a very stupid person:):):) Like me!!! Welcome to the club!

If the sound and smell coming from the bathroom are admissible for you- ask him directly to marry you!!!

Let him go! At least once! You absolutely have to !!!

If you feel better when he goes out instead of coming home-:(:(:(- it`s over!!! It has to be over!

If you don`t mind to kiss and suck him even before bathroom- you are in love! Or maybe you are a porn actress...

The best smell from a human body comes from the top end of the fore-arm! Especially if it`s burnt by sun! Try yourself. Than try him. It will freak you out if this very person is genetical right for you! Trust me!!!!!!!!!!!!! It`s a pure science!!! And I know who smells the best way ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And finally if you are in love, I`m sorry about you... And I do understand you;)

spent*

I spent a night in fear, insomnia and sweat. I was thinking about the things I `ve said last few days! Were they right? Did I say somenthing wrong? Did I abuse someone?


At this early hour of the day, happily I think that there is nothing to be ashamed to so I have to start my day on clear and in peace with myself.


And finally I do believe that I spent my money the right way and if it happens to have some extra money next year I will do the same.


* used as exhausted here

love, madness, devotion

I consider that if you don`t have any of this qualities, feelings or states of mind ( call them whatever you like) you cant do anything good! I do consider myself as mad, devoted and permanently in love in everything I do and maybe that`s the reason I do most things very well! Except one thing- keep myself from being mad, devoted and in love! I`m so, so sorry i`m like this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wish I was just dull and lifeless, inert and apathetic.... I wish I was heartless....... That was my wish when I went to a woman for a therapy! I said " Heal me from my feelings, please!" She said "No! I wont do that! Not because that I can`t, I wont let you to turn into heartless, stony person! People like you are too few lately...."

I don`t want to have this awful ability of mine- to love and to give my heart and soul to everything and everyone I see. I hate that!!!!!!!!!!! It is killing me but I can`t help myself doing it!!!!!!!! Why I can`t just stay away from that, why I`m always giving the most that I have? Why I can`t keep it to myself? Why I always need to give away? The stupid people do it! I know! They cant keep their feelings, their belongings, their words- they always give it!!! Damn it! I don`t belong here! I have always knew that! In a place where it`s a good quality to take but not to give expecting nothing in return I will always be miserable! I just know that! Is it normal for a woman to feel happier when her lover is coming instead of when she comes herself? Is there any other mad people around? Who is that woman that will give her extra money to people who she absolutely doesn`t know instead of some new fancy clothes and shoes and new Lancome lipstik for 64 leva? And a new perfume? I need one so much right now! Do you see why stupid women like my buy things? Because they will always stay with me. They wont heart me and they will serve me. Things that people don`t do....

I don`t think you understand! It`s too complicated for everyone that I know. Except one. But he is another mad. I can`t handle him!

Or maybe you understand?

What do you understand- me or English?

my friday training

This table is freacking me out!!! It`s full with mistakes but... try to find them! I made it with the help of... 3 people and it`s still wrong! Hope I will improve my work with excell hand in hand with my running:)

But let`s comment the training. I started it with the idea that I have to go it under 47: 65!!! There is no such time god forsake!!!That was a wrong calculation from the last friday because I have very big troubles with this Suunto that I have and after hours calculating I finnaly realized that the problem was in the running from 29 May. Anyway. That is the very next proof that I`m absolutely poor with the computers, calculations and the all freacky technics that surround me everywhere!

I just hate this part of my life! So I started with the idea that I have to go about 47 with the inner conviction that I`m going to improve my result because I felt fery fresh and confident. That conviction completely faded away on lap number 3. I just couldn`t move any faster than this though I didn`t had any particular problem to point - I was breathing easy, I didn`t had any pain or something. I just needed a kick or... I don`t think that I know this word no matter Bulgarian or English. I don`t know what it is! But when I fing it I will tell it!

At lap number 4 I was about to give up! I just couldn`t go on! I`m not sure how come I didn`t give up but I found some strenght to keep on running though I knew that I dont have any chance to run better than the previous week. I tried different tricks to forse my mind and body to move just a little faster but nothing helped! I imagned competitions, relays, people... nothing worked! The feeling was like part of my mind and body was asleep and I couldn`t find a way to awake it. That`s how I found myself at laps 5,6 and 7 thinking that if I have to, I can go on with this rate of movement forever, but I have no idea how to push myself to run any faster. I couldn`t even finish my running with sprint though I have the best last lap so far. I just knew that this is not my limit and I have a lot of reserve somewhere stored in my body but I don`t have any access to it!

The fuuniest part was in the middle of that last lap when I realized that I`m not going to give better result than the last week because I was thinking of these 47 min and when I saw my chronometer going far from this time, I just couldn`t make it out "what is going on here on earth"! I just couldn`t conceive how come I have similar laps but worse result! I was thinking of having at least the same time! Anyway lately I found out that running about 47 min. takes lot more efforts:)

The other surprice in this session is my heart peak - 192. I usually keep an eye on my monitor to see how I`m doing but this time I missed it. Probably it was at the last lap trying to beat my previous result:):):) And now I cant`t see it because "someone very dear to my heart" deleted the session:0.

Anyway. It was fun and I learned the truth that you can`t force your body and it`s not always working according to your wishes. And sometimes .... do you know that when I feel kind of lasy and unconfident at the worm up I get my best results and when I start with energy I usually get tired very quickly! What`s the name of this phenomenon I have no idea and I don`t care but It`s true. And hey, I`m still having better result!!!

22 seconds are still 22 seconds!!!!!!!! Some people do sex for this time:):):)

Next week is the most important competition for the year so these things I`m talking about now doesn`t matter. I`m in a sport called orienteering, not running that`s why I have to improve other things and next week I will do some exercises with map and short segments running. Hope I`ll have good things to type about not "oooooooo, life will go on and we`ll be fine..." You know I`m getting more or less sentimental in situations like these. Hope I don`t have to be this time!

See you!!!

PS The word I was looking for is "rapidity". I remember that I have learnt such word and I know where and how, but the word itself was out of my mind. Now I found it in one of my notebooks:):):)

The Mistakes Story

Last weekend my orienteering club was host of a national cup competition. It went really well and the weather was nice....

No, it didnt went well. Somehow it happened that a serious mistake was done and it spoiled the whole competition. I`m not going to comment any details because it affects one very dear to my heart person but this trouble is just "pushing " me to write something about it. I mean something about the mistakes that we make and how important they appear to be lately for our entire fortune.

When I was 19 I made a ..... ok, it was a mistake. The pregnancy. But now when I see the result of this "mistake" I`m not sure that it was a mistake actually. It was probably meant to be. It was just supposed to happen. I dont believe now that if I didnt gave birth to Kalina my life wold run better and easier way. I`m just not sure about it because I met a former schoolmate of mine a few months ago and she told me things that made me feel like I have made a big success of my life though I have always had those bad taste in my mouth from the fear from complete and entire failure. It appeared in the end that it wasnt a failure but something really good that I have done. It just took 6-7 yrs. to realise it, to feel it and to understand it.

Mistakes can be oportunities in your life. Mistakes can be options. Mistakes come for a reason and it`s up to you to see that reason, to figure it out and to make the most from any situation you fall into. Because we can benefit even from the mistakes that we make. Even if it takes 6 years to understand it.

Who is not working isn`t wrong. If you do nothing of course you will never be wrong. But you will never be right either! And you will never know how far you can go. I went this far and I can`t wait to see what happens next in this movie called "my life".

If you make a mistake that compromises you among the whole community that you belong to just look around and see who is with you. If there is nobody- go away from there. If you find people to give you love and support - they are your friends and the mistake you have done comes to show you exactly who they are. And if you are smart you will learn a good lesson no matter how desperate and bad the situation is. By the way, it`s never too bad, trust me!

This very picture was shot by Krasi Rashkov. I just love it ! Well done Krasi!

brown team junior

comparative scale of one of my trainings for two following sessions

This is a table that shows some details from two of my train summaries about this particular practice - 8km. I`m doing it every friday and I publish it with the big idea to collect some opinions about my condition from friends and people who are interested by sport. I intend to continue publishing these results as my own motive to keep training it every week and to make an effort for significant improvement of these results.

There are some notes I have to make. The first one is that I started serious training on 1st March this year and I dont really have any experience with the professional sport and I don`t intend to. Today I even realised how ridiculous and senseless is everything that I do and that probably this is a complete waste of time. Anyway. I need a hobby and I choose this one.

The second note is about the route that I run. I`ll try to publish a map of it lately if I find someone to tell me how! Another thing- the first lap is 1200 meters, half of them pure climbing and I usually don`t push myself to it, that`s why it takes these 10 min to go. The other 7 laps are 1000m long, absolutely identical, mostly on a level road with very little climbing and descend.

This is the only cross I do during the week now. My other trainings are mostly intervals and running with map.

Hopefully I`ll see you next friday with more results and hopefully(again) they will be better. I`ll be very proud with myself if one day I run it under 5:30 min/km. Don`t judge me too hard! I expect opinions and advices on ladybirdyd@abv.bg! Thank you!