Long legs, short legs, without legs

"aim high...think outside the box...expect the unexpected...stay open...stay focused...belive in yourself...YOU ARE YOUR OWN GOD IN YOUR OWN UNIVERSE!
Happy New Year, World:))) Compassion, Love & Wisdom conquers ALL.... " Daniel L. Florev

Unbelievable! That sentence accumulates everything I learned this year! Danny is a great young man, a good friend of mine, I just adore following. If I am blessed to have father in my next life I would choose him to be one. No kidding!

But what astonished me the most was this part: YOU ARE YOUR OWN GOD IN YOUR OWN UNIVERSE!

Hey! When I was a little girl and we went to bed early with my mom ( she was always tired and against all that might happen to a person after 8PM, including watching TV, so we went to bed early, sometimes even when outside was still bright in the summer!) so I had a very good opportunity to lay in bed and think.

Im not sure exactly how old I was, probably 7-8, but sometimes I asked myself: "What if inside my stomach there is a world like ours and there are people who live there and I am their God? And inside the stomach of every little man inhabiting my inner world, there is another one and so on and so on. Like the Russian Doll Sets- Matryoshka?

Thats what I was thinking during the long, lonesome evenings spent in bed, in silence. My imagination was my only friend. No surprise I still enjoy silence and thinking.. French psychology ;)

So what if I was kind of right? What if I am God in my own inner world indeed? Am I a good god? Its difficult to balance and make choices all the time. What is important? Who is important? How should I judge different cases? How should I reward and punish? Whats the moral in there? I guess I have to practice more what I want to become- good God in my own Universe.

And yes, the heading! Some people are born black, some people white. Some have blue eyes, some dark. Some are born in loving families, others are thrown away. Some people have long legs, some- short legs. Some people dont have legs...

If you are capable to read this, you can reach the conclusion by yourself!

Happy New Year!

And another one

Last night I got the "Inception" kick. But I didnt fall in the water. I fell from the edge of the Universe, in the emptiness. That fall will never end... there will be no water for me. No one will catch me and I will never wake up..

That fall has started when I was born, I know that. Simply last night I realized for the next time what is the reality for me. Period.

The dream after 4am:
The same person.. I dreamed he has bought a small plot of land here at the place I live, down the river, to make a home and work residence. He emailed me, that he needs my help to run the project. I received a gift from him, a post mail. Some kind of document, a paper.. In between the pages, there was hidden message, hand written. A confession that he is in love with me and is inviting me to visit him.

The way I felt in my dream was absolutely incredible, the ultimate happiness.. Is this some kind of compensation for my troubles in the real life?

Отново

Мдааа.. Предполагам, че това са най-безмислените статии на света, но не мога да пропусна да отбележа, че отново сънувах същия човек! Абсолютно същия ... как е възможно съзнанието ми да си го изгради и поддържа вече толкова време не знам. А подсъзнанието ми да ме уведомява периодично как вървят нещата :D

Искрено се забавлявам и наслаждавам на тези сънища, а когато се сетя за тях изпитвам истинско щастие.. тук, от тази страна; в този свят.

Пропуснах да отбележа, че беше доста по-висок от обикновено и ми се разсърди защото си говорех с друг. Тръгна нагоре по едни стълби.. Ще го догоня аз, историята далеч не е свършила, напротив- това е само предчувствие за нея.