the cake of the nature

Beautiful and venomous like me...

I came upon this in the forest I`m usually running. Amazing, isn`t it?

smells like autumn

In today`s running I finally felt that the summer is comming to it`s end. It smellt like a fallen autumn leafs. Beautiful smell. And very sad. There was a thin golden cover on the ground telling me that this season is over.

I usually feel sad when I see this. I feel fear. Fear of the cold, dark, lonely, sad and miserable winter that is comming... The swallows are gone. Have I ever told you we have swallows in our house? Two gorgeous, little nests in our bathroom, which window we never close from april to the end of august because of them. People say that swallows make nests only under the roofs of the good people`s houses. They never stay with the bad people.

I was talking about the autumn. In general it is the saddest season ever, but this summer was so sad for me, that now I feel the comming fall as a relief for the first time in my life. I had 26 autumns so far and lets say that about 20 of them I was aware of and for the very first time I don`t feel sadness and fear of what is comming. I predict It`s something good. Somethind very good. I feel pease in my heart.... and no fear.

P.S. Hope I feel no fear, not because I have become senseless. Hope I feel no fear, because I have hope ( am not sure I have made a literary correct sentence but that is the truth).

olympic games*

Usain Bolt - three gold medals, three world records! Alien!

Tirunesh Dibaba- my favourite female athlete! It`s a great pleasure for me to watch her running- very tidy and elegant. The perfect long distance runner!

Steven Hooker- excellent genetic material!!!

* All pictures in this article are downloaded from http://sports.yahoo.com

sherpa

Have I ever told you I have the gratest job in the world?
What sort of busines can give you the chance to meet someone like him?
By the way I was told if I decide one day to go to Everest to call him... And I was given a busines card.... One of the best proposals I have ever had! Wonderful simple man. He had about 5 missing fingers. I didn`t ask him but I quess they have been damaged by frost.

Fantastic chance to meet this person. Sometimes I feel like Alice in wonderland!

Two minutes later I was cleaning sheets from vomit. It`s the most awful and repellent thing ever!!!And it`s so hard to remove those little pieces of food-once swallowed, a little digested and than thrown up... they are so sticky...
It`s disgusting isn`t it!

Pure Brown Bulgaria Cup

I`m absolutely happy to notify you that Brown Team had fabulous success at the Bulgaria Cup 2008. We just swept them all away! The competition was very much away from the world standarts for orienteering competitions but anyway- the conditions were equal for all the runners so the fight is a fight no matter the circumstances.



We were at the Rodopi Mountains at the region of Smolyan city. Good place but not any better than Veliko Tarnovo. I felt it like that. The forest was good for running- sort of high mountain forest, very clear and perfect for high speed. First two stages I was out of concentration esp the first day. But the third stage was my turn to be number one so total from the three starts I became second in W21-A group. I think this is a good illustration for my condition at the moment. If I was a little better on the technical aspect of the orienteering....

Next year may be. I just need a practice. I`m sure I`m not any stupid than any other women in the Bugarian orienteering at the moment. We`ll see.

I can say that I feel much better than 5 or 6 days ago. Than I reached the bottom. I`ve done it before and I`ve been back on my feet again and probably it will happen many times in my life but... it just hurts so much....

Anyway. I`m happy now. I deserved this joy and I enjoyed it with all my heart!!!

Thank you God! I appreciate it;)


My little angel is a medalist too:):):) I`ve never seen her sooooooo happy!

Good morning, Bulgaria!

11th of August,2008
7:46 A.M.
On the very center of Veliko Tarnovo
No comment!

I cannot believe this is happening to me!!!!!! Just three minutes after I posted my last publication last night I found out that this very person I`m talking about has had an affairs with other girls and the most important is that he has the INTENTION to sleep with one of them on the very next competition we have. And all this information posted, published, and revelated in the orienteering forum that we have.

I`ve never been that demeaned, that angry and that ....... I have no idea how could this be called! Absolute, pure idiot!Don`t know how to comment it. This is like a movie, a novel or... feel like someone will suddenly appear and say: " Hey, don`t worry, it`s over! That was one big joke, ok!"

I know this is not going to happen.

The biggest concern that I have is that probably I will have to quit the orienteering. First of all I`m not sure if I can go to competitions with Kalina, because we don`t have a car and sometimes competitions are too far from any public transport. Everyone else has car or depends on someone who has and that was the situation with me and Kalin. He used to drive us both everywhere. I don`t think there is someone who has two free seats for us.

The second reason is the humiliation. It`s just too big to bare it.

The third reason is that I don`t want to disturb him. He has a behaviour to fallow, to sleep with every cute and horny little bitch he meets, so I don`t want to remind him about our stupid relationship. About the horrible me and the love that I feel.

I will let you know how my life goes on. Now I need a rest.
Hope I am not going to loose my sport! I lied him that I`m interested only by him, but not the sport. I just wanted to impress him. Orienteering is good for me and I love it. One of the very few joys in my life and Kalina`s too.

Anyway I won`t delete the previous publocation! I want everyone to know how much I have been in love with him. And still I am.