smells like autumn

In today`s running I finally felt that the summer is comming to it`s end. It smellt like a fallen autumn leafs. Beautiful smell. And very sad. There was a thin golden cover on the ground telling me that this season is over.

I usually feel sad when I see this. I feel fear. Fear of the cold, dark, lonely, sad and miserable winter that is comming... The swallows are gone. Have I ever told you we have swallows in our house? Two gorgeous, little nests in our bathroom, which window we never close from april to the end of august because of them. People say that swallows make nests only under the roofs of the good people`s houses. They never stay with the bad people.

I was talking about the autumn. In general it is the saddest season ever, but this summer was so sad for me, that now I feel the comming fall as a relief for the first time in my life. I had 26 autumns so far and lets say that about 20 of them I was aware of and for the very first time I don`t feel sadness and fear of what is comming. I predict It`s something good. Somethind very good. I feel pease in my heart.... and no fear.

P.S. Hope I feel no fear, not because I have become senseless. Hope I feel no fear, because I have hope ( am not sure I have made a literary correct sentence but that is the truth).