a new hope for me and this poor thing

I found this little puppy on my way training! He was shivering and whining all alone on the street. I`m not a dog fan but I just couldnt leave him! Good people helped me to take care and "accommodate" him in a house with a big yard. Hopefully he will survive! I`ll try to show you some more picures later if he is fine! Fine means anything but dead:) He is just too young -probably 2-3 weeks old!

I`m kind of fine... I mean I realized something important, because I had serious doubts about the man I`m in love with. First and foremost I surely know that I`m in love after all, because I was getting over the loss of him. I even found a new object for my "everlasting- everstreaming- neverending" love ( I don`t even know him, the second one, just product of my fantasy, of course) but here I am - in love with a real person for... 5 months!

He is not in love, as I mentioned in my previous publication, but he still makes me feel great.I have to give him a lesson if I want to stand on my dignity but I know one thing for sure- this person will keep on freaking me out forever! I guess if he ever stops, that will be an evidense that I don`t love him anymore.

I can count thousands of reasons why I want him and can`t get through him but It`s just too personal. You have no idea how personal it may be;)

Lets say he is like a lovely, wild colt that can never be catched and tamed, but that is not a reason to stop longing for him. He has no idea what I`m getting through because of him!

Man... Bulgarian man...

And one more thing - only a woman in love can offer herself expecting nothing in return. In the songs you can come across this as "no strings attached"- no conditions, no restrictions, nothing... He just has to exist! That is the case with me, my friends, he exists and I adore him. That`s all!

He doesn`t want to commit, I guess. This is the resaon. No chance for me, "no heaven for the lonely"!*

* Bryan Adams

P.S. That is a shame! I have to post a serious publication at last! I`m turning into a chicklit character! Absolutely disgusting!