let the sun go down on me!

one big hope...

one big compromise...

one big disappointment...

I licked the dust... because I fell in love...

Once I was told there are people who never feel love. They can live with someone, take a care, but they confess they have no idea what love is. This is absolutely true. Like people who cant read properly or people who never feel fear or guilt. It`s not their fault.

But it`s not fair to live in a lie with someone. That is cruel. Nobody deserves such thing, nobody.

I used to have a relationship with a person I wasn`t in love with. I was in the beginning, of course but he gave me some reasons to fall out of this love and what happened later was that I had to proseed or put an end of our relationship. I proseeded it but I had to admit to him that I am not in love anymore and it`s up to him to decide if he wants to be with me or not. He wanted to. And I was. And it was a good and wholesome relationship, though we had really hard moments. The point is that I was honest with him and i`m proud of that. Anybody who wants to may judge me- I don`t care. I did the right thing.

Now I feel a victim of someone who didn`t tell me that. It`s very abusive but definitely not something I can`t get along with.

It wasn`t a wholesome relationship anyway...