in the beginnig

hello

here I am... having no idea what I`m doing atm :)

I`m a complete beginner with this and I feel like the first time you know.I didnt mean to write this in english but my computer just cant type in bulgarian in the net.I have no idea why. And I`m so poor with the computers that when I try to explain what the problem is people just dont believe me:) and laugh at me as well.

Anyway. It will be a good test for my english trying to explain my complicated feelings and thoughts .

Aaaa, let me introduce myself:

- as I already mentioned I`m such a complicated person;very depressive, very shy, very unsecure...... in general I`m the worst company you can ever think of and I guess thats why I dont have many friends.

- I`m 27 now.

- I have a little daughter Kalina. She`s my better version :) very beautiful, very smart, a happy child that I wasn`t. Sometimes I feel like she`s too good to be mine but she is for sure.

- I have graduated in highschool only - dont have any university education or a surtain profession. Thats a problem for me. Or not. It`s someone else`s problem but I `m not going to introduce this person yet.

- How do I make my living? I have a little company owned and ruled by myself. I`m washing people`s dirty clothes, bedding and everything that can be washed in a washing mashine. I love washing.

- My biggest passion is sport. Sport and music. One for my body and one for my soul. In this blog I`m going to write a lot abouth them. Fave sport? It`s orienteering. When I was a teenager that was a big obsession of mine but when I graduated I just left everything that I could leave - school, sport, home, friends..... everything. I think there is just one reason for someone to do it - being miserable. Did I find happiness? Oh, no of course no! But I just had to try! I had to! Honestly I believe that that was just the start of a road that I`m still going and will never end till I`m alive. It`s called life!

- Music..... It`s a huge territory, universe that will never end, never give me up or hurt me. And it`s all mine and free, brought via my very fave i pod. Let me tell you a secret - I used to be in love with Martin L. Gore ;). What do you think? No need to explain.

- Then I fell in love with another person...... he`soooooooooooooo real that it hurts! Very real! I`m not sure if i`m going to comment him or our relationship on this blog but you will know how I feel about him for sure!

- What else? Oh, yes! How come I`m back in orienteering? Long beautiful story but I will tell it later. Let`s say that it started september, 2007. I`m seriously training since march, 2008.

I think that is enough for a good beginning. Good night!