I am a monster!
I spent the last 3 hours of my life searching for a song called Silence.
Delerium feat Sarah McLachlan ( Niels van Gogh vs. Thomas Gold remix) if I have to be accurete to the very last!
That`s it! I heard a little part of this song in a huge Dj M.I.K.E. set and little by little I found it. Dont ask me how! I looked over probably hundred of tracklists before I got it!
The point is that I got it;)
I believe it`s gonna be one of my very fave songs in future. I`ll download every single piece of torrent with this song!
Anyway-It`s one small but sweet victory!
Lately I feel like hell but doesnt matter. I cry, I feel pain, disappointmen, anger, sorrow....
I cant even listen my favourite music properly because of my ear. Yes, I have pain in my ear.... Along with all the other physical and emotional aches that I have. But if I ever have an ear again I will burst it with music. A lot of trance and my-one-and-only-favourite-for-life-depeche-mode-music!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And if I ever see a man (from a close range) I will have sex. A lot of sex!
Now I have to suffer with my missing tooth (or the hole that`s left), my sore throat and my painful ear. Yes!
P.S. In those psycho-books that I have (Deepak Chopra`s for example) it`s written to think positive;)
I AM VERY POSITIVE NOW, DEEPAK! VERY POSITIVE!!!I AM THE MOST POSITIVE PERSON YOU HAVE EVER HEARD ABOUT!!! ...... JERK!

*in a village c I made this amazing picture alled Radovci. Fantastische! With plenty of "die Himbeeren":):):) Yes, it`s gonna be like that! I`m starting German lessons at the end of this month and I am happy as I can be about it. You have no idea how much I have already learnt by myself. See you loosers!!!!!