level 34, chapter two

No doubt, on 34 is full of strangers and newcommers. Just take a look arround and see how many people behave unadequate! ALMOST EVERYONE!!!!!
The point is most of these people come from level - (minus) 300! It`s still 1562 year there! That`s why they behave like aborigines. People from higher level, like me, just keep silence. And cry humbly... What else can I do? There is no way out from here.

Have you heard that earth is the hell itself? That we are already in hell? That makes sense along with my theory that we are all strangers here comming from various different worlds! That`s is why we are so incompatible. White, dark, tall, short, beautiful, ugly, smart, stupid, ahtletic, fat, depressive, optimistic... Everyone here is so different. But after all we still have a chance to find people who are just like us, who come from our place. But it`s so hard for me to find other inhabitants from my page. Sometimes I think that I am the only sinner on 37!!! I wonder what is that horrible thing I have done to be punnished like that, to be thrown out here from there.

By the way I am still a bad person. Probably I am here to heal from that. But I dont see myself getting any better .... I`m getting even worse. I`m stuck here forever... with those from -300...

Today I abused so many people and I said so many words I didn`t wanted to, that now I feel like a criminal. I was bad at home, so I am not looking forward to go home; I was bad at work, so I don`t want to stay here anymore; everything goes wrong and there is no place to go and no person to talk with... It all went wrong today. Now I`m drinking wine ( (!!!) imagine how lokal I am turning into!!!), eating bad mozzarela (on my level they make it soft and fresh, here is like yellow cheese) and last but not lest I am trying to clear out my dirty conscious typing down all my sins on this blog. Unsuccessfully.

Someday I will confess all my sins here. Probably soon. There is no wonder people in Finland kill themselves so often. And get drunk every day - the bad weather makes me do this all the time!