pain...

I know I havent been posted for a long time, but there is nothing significant happening in my life to be discussed. But it doesnt mean that I havent had good ideas in my head, I just felt too bad to post anything. I have a horrible toothache! And tomorrow I`m going lo loose one of my teeth:( ................
I suppose it`s for better because the doctor can`t guarantee that if this tooth is healed and filled, it will be fine next 10 or 15 yrs, so I think it`s better to have an artificial one! I think this is quite horrible and repulsive but... there is no other way as the situation was left to go this bad.
I just want to appoint that it is not my false! I am visiting dentist as often as needed and recommended, but they just cant do their job properly!!! They always miss something and there is always something else to be done and when you go next time:"Ooooooo, here we have something....". And they take that machine "just to investigate this littlle thing out there" and half an hour later you are with two hollowed out teeth that "Probably can`t be healed!" And gaze upon you telling: "You are a complete wretch! You dont wash your teeth, you dont use tooth cord and you havent been visiting me for years!!! That is exactly what you deserve!" And the head is being slowly shaked demonstrating his complete disappointind and disgust from your miserable personality!
Of course none of these accusations are true but "here is the result!"- go and prove you are right and you wash your teeth every time. And you left him last time your monthly salary to "fix something unsignificant that bothers me!" And meanwhile a huge caries is destroying your tooth from inside for years under an old, school filling!
Anyway, who says life is fair!
So I`m expecting to see tomorrow these accusing eyes telling me "You, creature, you are going to suffer now for your sins against the the Holly World Dentistry Institution!"

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If I am alive I`ll see you tomorrow! Good night!